Tuesday, July 31, 2007

troubled spirit

I'm feeling sort of down today. I wouldn't quite call it depressed, just down.

As far as I can tell here's why:

1. My cats pissed on my new mattress... twice and because I tried to clean it myself, it voided the warranty and I have to pay out of pocket to get it cleaned. I can't get it cleaned till next week sometime so now I'm back to sleeping on my old mattress while smelling the stinky new one standing up against my bedroom wall.

2. I was looking forward to spending time with my GF when she was off work tonight. But because I have a stupid cold, she couldn't come over. And I had made arrangement for my mom to take my baby for a few hours on Thursday so I could see here then too and now I can't do that either.

3. Grunty is getting his first chemo treatment tomorrow (Weds) and I'm worried sick about it. I tried to call him tonight but the phone rang and rang and then gave me some wierd busy signal.

4. I was so looking forward to touching base with my very dear friends when I returned from holidays, but Pickles is nowhere to be found and SSD is currently on his way to Barcelona. Thank God Sinclair called yesterday!

5. My hubby seems grumpy since we've been back from the lake and I can't seem to figure out why. Whenever he's grumpy, I feel like I've done something wrong, although I know I haven't. It sucks.

On the plus side, I found some corn chips at Safeway last night that offer 12g of fiber per serving! That, my friends, is a major plus! AND, Eb was nice enough to send me a pic of his setting sun tonight. It was gorgeous.

Jules... Out! :Omeh

Monday, July 30, 2007

My 3's, for SSD

I was tagged by SSD before I went on holidays but with all the packing and preparing I needed to get done before I left, I didn't have time to do it. But know what? Now I do! Are you sure you wanna know this much stuff about me? It's the Meme of 3's. Let's boogey!

Three Things That Scare Me:
1. Not being able to look after my son.
2. Losing loved ones.
3. Spiders - I can stand them when they're still and not on me, but if they're moving or on me, I completely spaz out).

Three People Who Make Me Laugh:
1. My son
2. Just about any comedian (specially ones that come armed with sex or bodily function jokes)
3. Pickles

Three Things I Love:
1. Love
2. Taking pictures
3. Smelling things

Three Things I Hate:
1. Being ill
2. Arrogance
3. Closemindedness

Three Things I Don’t Understand:
1. The internal workings of my body
2. Numbers
3. Why sometimes I feel like bright red nail polish and other times soft blue

Three Things On My Desk:
1. Plant tags
2. Loads of clutter
3. A receipt from Home Depot with an access code to a questionairre that promises the opportunity to win something if filled out... it's probably expired.

Three Things I’m Doing Right Now:
1. Trying not to have a coughing fit
2. Quite literally drawing a blank on what to put here...
3. I tooted not too long ago. Does that count?

Three Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
1. Travel... I want to meet some of you. Like, for realsies.
2. Raise my son
3. Oh My God. I don't have any goals. Shit.

Three Things I Can Do:
1. Garden
2. Teach
3. Dream

Three Things I Can’t Do:
1. Scratch the very middle of my own back
2. Touch my tongue to my nose
3. Remember (honestly... I'm the most forgetful person you'll ever know... but it's not for lack of trying, I promise!)

Three Things I Think You Should Listen To:
1. Your tummy - seriously. It has a lot to say if you listen.
2. What comes out of your mouth
3. Your heart (I'm sorry Elbee, I'm stealing this one because it's amazing)

Three Things You Should Never Listen To:
1. The words: You can't do it.
2. The voice in your head that tells you to put it off till tomorrow.
3. A person's confessional

Three Things I’d Like To Learn (but won’t):
1. Another language fluently (therefore, I have much respect for multilingual people)
2. Timezones
3. How to remember people's names that I've met face to face

Three Favourite Foods:
1. Pork Fried Rice
2. Pot Roast
3. Spaghetti and my step-dad's meat sauce

Three Cartoon/Shows I Watched As A Kid:
1. Hercules
2. Looney Toons
3. Smurfs

Three Bloggers I’ve tagged: (It was hard to pick 3. Meme's suck ass that way because I don't like to leave people out. So if you wanna do it and I've not tagged you, please do and then let me know you did!)

1. Sinclair
2. D-Man
3. Random Thinker

Another award!

See, I can see myself being awarded the cool chick award, but this... THIS is just something I never in my wildest dreams expected to receive. I mean, really Billy?? You are so sweet to award me the Thinking Blogger Award... and I'm honored that you think I deserve it! But I suppose, if my little posts about dancing rain and shimmering diamond snow can in some way influence you to live for the moment and take in everything that you can from what's around you, then I guess it has made you think! (HUGS)

I guess now I have to come up with 5 other Thinking Bloggers to award and tell why I think they deserve it... so here goes! (But first, don't be insulted if I didn't name you... you know you're intellectual, you don't need me to tell you!)

1. Though Lovers Be Lost - Babes, I realize you've received this award recently from someone else, but you've got to be one of the most "thinking" people I know! Your essays and your opinions are the epitomy of being well thought out. Your frankness and humor is refreshing and I can always tell you're passionate about what you write. What would life be like in blogland without you? I can't remember and I don't want to!

2. Grunt Ahoy - You make me think... you REALLY make me think... in an off the wall oddball kind of way! I love your imagination and your wacky posts. There are so many sides to your brain I can't even begin to wrap my own around it all! Thank you for keeping me laughing and entertained!

3. Complex Femme - From office antics to opinions of real life stuff to your poems, you notice things in the world that make me take notice too. Some of your passions and interests lie in areas that I never gave much thought to before meeting you. And now I do!!

4. Chimeric Daydreams - You are a man of great great talent and you aren't afraid of sharing it. Your photos and your interpretations of them and of your surroundings really make me stop and take in my own world, and inspire me to photograph the things that I love more and more. Your openness about events in your life is sometimes sets me aback and leaves me speechless. You're wonderful!!

5. Sanitarium Letters - Now YOU are a man dealing with a huge slap of reality and obstacles on a day to day basis, yet somehow you manage to pull through. I really feel for you, Sweetie. I can't imagine what it's like being in your world... but your blog really is no holds barred on letting the world know what it's like to be you and is a huge eye opener. You talk about what hits you the hardest on a variety of subjects and it's intriguing to be part of the goings on in your head.

Okay. There you go, peeps!!! I hope you go take a peek at those blogs and see for yourself why I awarded them! If you feel like it, My Esteemeed Award Winners, you can continue the meme... but there's never any pressure from me.

Love Jules

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Boo!

Hi!! I'm baaaaaaaaaaaack!! Di'ja miss me?

More tomorrow... for now, it's all about the unpacking.

Love Love Love!

Jules :Oj

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Grunty...

Okay, so I've been given permission to name the friend who is sick. He is looking for lots of hugs, so please stop by his blog and offer him some. And let's not forget to keep him in our positive thoughts and prayers, too... okay?

GRUNTY and I have known eachother for nearly a year now and he's always been there for me to help me overcome issues in my life. He's a wonderful confidant and a fantastic friend. He's soo smart and fascinating to talk to. He's a knowledge base for music, movies, anything guitar/amp related. He's driven and imaginative and quirky and sarcastic, but underneath that he's full of love and compassion (and it doesn't take much to see it either). He's a wonderful musician with a soft singing voice. He really truly is an AMAZING person and I feel lucky to have crossed his path last summer. I look forward to the many, many more years ahead of frienship with him, because I know he's gonna beat this thing. He's been diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma and although he doesn't know what stage he's at yet, he's managing to keep a positive outlook on things. The more support and positive thoughts he receives, the better able to cope he'll be, I'm sure. If I were in his position, I'd want that. So stop by his blog if you can and let him know he's got more people thinking about his well being than he realizes!

Love Jules :O*

Vacation Time!

Well everyone, I know this is gonna be hard for you to take, but I'm leaving for over a week.

*hands you all a kleenex to wipe your tears*

Breathe. You're gonna be okay!

We're going to our family cabin Saturday and we won't be back till the 29th. The cabin is in the Resort Village of Shields on Blackstrap Lake, Saskatchewan. (Hey Pickles, I'll be one province closer, wanna come over for drinks?). It's about a 7 hour drive from here, including pee and lunch breaks. This will be Nate's second time out there, but last year he wasn't even crawling yet, so I think this year will be much more fun for him. But there's no technology out there, so I won't be able to keep up with blogging and emails. When I return home, I'll do my best to catch up on the reading, though. Mkay? Feel better now?

Love you lots and will be bringing my daily thoughts of you with me while I'm out having fun on the water!

Love Jules :O*

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

can't we all just "snack"?

I'm having issues because it's too hot to have an appetite, let alone be motivated to cook anything. Yet I feel like if I don't cook, I'm being a slacker. I'm not a slacker, I just don't like to cook, really, and in this heat it makes it even harder to do so.

I've developed a new concept for the Starbucks barristas. When I order my Grande Caramel Frappuccino extra sweet with extra drizzle, I've been adding in the term "layered" at the end. They always ask me what I mean by that so I have to tell them to layer the whipped cream with the coffee throughout the whole drink. It's DELICIOUS!! I'm onto something here. Try it! With whatever drink you order if it normally comes with whipped cream.

I have yet to try one of those half sluch half slurpee drinks. What are those called again?

My fence is supposed to be done today, but unless they're gonna stay till 8pm again, I don't see how that's gonna be possible. Tomorrow though. Fingers crossed.

Biggreatfatgiantsnigglefizz.

I have to make some time soon to enter my iCoke numbers into the website. Maybe I should go do that right now instead of typing out meaningless random thoughts. But first, I'm gonna go to the mailbox and see if anyone loves me today.

Jules :Oq

the rain is very pretty

We had thunderstorms all night last night it seemed. But for sure at 3 seperate occassions: midnight-ish, 4asm-ish and 7am-ish. The morning one lasted until almost 9. I was driving on my way to the hospital for my follow up probe appointment and the rain seemed to have subsided for a bit as I was stopped at a light. And then all of a sudden, 2 huge heavy waterdrops fell in front of me on my window. They caught my attention and I was mesmerized by them as they playfully teased eachother, playing tag as they ran down the slope of my windshield. If I were tiny, I'm sure I'd have been able to hear them giggling and saying "Catch me if you can!". They slipped along the glass in two meandering paths, squiggling side to side, almost touching and then spreading back apart. Finally, the larger of the two drops swallowed up the smaller one and in union they fell the last bit together and gleefully laid together at the bottom until I started to move again. I'm not sure where they went from there... but I do know that I really enjoyed watching their little ballet.

Am I strange for noticing things like this? Because I do... often.

Jules :Oi

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Unanswered prayer.

Fuck. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

I know this isn't about me, but my tears won't stop and my heart feels like it weighs a million tonnes as I write this entry. A very dear friend of mine has been diagnosed with cancer. The fucking C-word. That swear word that I never let cross my lips anymore.

Sweetheart, you know who you are and I don't know that the whole of my community needs to know your identity, but ....

... I can't write anymore.

Just know that I'll do anything within my means to be there for you, and I mean that - I promise.

Love Jules
HUGS AND KISSES FOREVER

Monday, July 16, 2007

a question...

Do I ever cross your mind, or your lips in conversation with another person? Am I thought of by you when not online? Do you giggle at something I said once when you're brushing your teeth in the morning, or walking down the street? Am I mentionable? Am I rememberable? Is that even a word? No. It's not. Am I memorable? There, that's better!

Just wondering.

Jules :Oj

Sunday, July 15, 2007

It's so pretty!

I bought this at the farmer's market this weekend. It completely made my whole day and I was almost giddy after putting it on! Every step I'd take, I'd glance down at my foot and see the new jewlery I donned and think to myself: I love you, I love you, I love you...

I actually said it out loud a couple of times while looking at my foot and my hubby looked at me strange and just shook his head. Who would get so excited about foot jewlery? Just me. It's so pretty. It's even prettier in person, if any of you want to make the trip over to see it). And its white beads and silver detail work look so pretty against my tanned foot (you can tell I wear flops all summer). I love it. I didn't wear it to bed last night, and probably won't any night, but I think it will stay on my foot throughout the days for quite some time!

Enjoy the pic! Did you ever think you'd get that up close and personal with my feet?

Jules :Oyay!

Saturday, July 14, 2007

everywhere I go

All the places I walk to or drive to or visit, I'm reminded of the people I know and love. It's really endearing to me.... to have little reminders poke me in the brain that make me think nice thoughts. You know?

Like, my sister and I went into a store today and it had some musical instruments in it and I saw an amp and thought of Grunty. In another store, a dragonfly reminded me of KB. At the drive thru at Starbucks I was reminded of how much Kim said she liked frapps, but how I always thought it was only to be polite when we bought her one, and that made me chuckle inside. I saw someone riding a strange bycicle and flashed over to Sinclair. I noticed that my neighbor's hydrangea is doing well and it made me think of Ebzep. These are just a few examples of reminders of my friends. I wouldn't be lying if I said that you all cross my mind at some point through any given day. I wonder if you're feeling better, or if you had a whacky dream last night, or what you had for breakfast, or are you suffering through a heat wave like I am. I wonder if you remembered to shave your legs or how many times you filled up your water bottle. I wonder if you're travelling to some exciting destination, or if you're at home with your family. I wonder if you got to soak up the sun, or if you chose to stay inside.

You guys surround me. And I love it!

And ... thank you!

Love Jules :Oj

SW words

I learned two new terms today: Swock and Swunt. Anyone else know what I'm talking about? Can you use them in a sentence correctly? Just for fun, let's see how creative you can be!

Jules :O)

Friday, July 13, 2007

really just mumbling here, but read it if you want

Yesterday I went to Edmonton with Kim and we had a really great time hanging out together and laughing it up, as best friends should do. It was tremendous for me because we just haven't had that much quality time together for one reason or another. Anyway, enough mushy stuff. We walked the streets of Old Strathcona and bought numerous non-essential items (nothing drug or sex related, so keep your panties on), and when we figured we'd finished all the shops, we hopped on the freeway over to West Edmonton Mall (which battles the Mall of Americas for world's largest mall title ownership). We figured if we couldn't kill a couple of hours there we were probably hopeless. While at West Ed, we went into a store called "The British Exports Store" and I immediately was flooded with thoughts of my buddies in the UK. To celebrate, and partly because I wondered whether they'd ever had any of what I chose) I bought some candy bars that I'd never tried. One was a Cadbury Flake and the other was some kind of extremely sticky toffee (but not toffee) like orange and green thing that promised a mouth full of fizz. I'd write the name of it, but I lost the effing wrapper that I thought I'd saved. So, Eb or SSD, if you know of the bar I'm referring to, please enlighten me. Bright orange wrapper, says "Brew" flavor. Whatever the heck that is.

(UPDATE: I found the wrapper in the flowerbed. It is called: WHAM Tongue Tingling Chew Bar. Now I ask you... who wouldn't wanna give that a try?)

Now for today's major activity: Handywoman 101 Course from my mom on how to tile your bathtub surround! I watched some videos and basically live off of HGTV (in the winter), so I pretty much knew what I was doing, but she came and walked me through the first bit of it. Soooo easy... but time consuming when you put too much tile adhesive on the little 2" mosiac tiles and then all the glue comes forth which you then have to get out from inbetween each little tile so that grout will be able to squeeze in there later. Enough rambling! Suffice it to say that what I thought was going to be a quick project took me a few hours in total because of the painstaking elimination of excess adhesive. And that was just for a 6 " border around the one piece tub. But, it's gonna look really nice when it's done. So it's probably worth the massively sore back and feet. Besides, who am I to complain?

Tonight I went to see Ratatouille with hubby and although we had to suffer through massively long line ups to both get in and get snacks, the movie was well worth the effort! I thought it was really cute and funny and smart. I'm sure it will end up in my video library at some point!

It's wet, it's sticky, it's hot and humid. No, I'm not talking about my privates. The weather. It's gross. I know I should be thankful I don't live where it's +40, but DAMN, it feels like that and more today. Wish we had a window in our new house we could stick one of those window air conditioners in for days like today.

Bored yet? Well good news!! I'm done!

Jules :Oy

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

my day

This morning I spent time at Sylvan Lake with my baby and Kim and a little girl she was working with. An hour and a half flew by like it was 20 minutes!! But I felt like being by the water and surrounded by lots of people and that's the best place around here for that kind of atmosphere.

I spent this afternoon doing a computer drawing to scale of my backyard to see exactly how the layout will work for adding a second tier to the deck. The city requires me to be 15' from the back fence, so I had to reconfigure from my first thoughts. I think I've got it worked out, finally! Here's what I came up with.


I needed to work the exact measurements out today because our fence is going to be built starting either this Saturday or Monday. Which means we'll be all fenced in before we leave for our holiday to the lake on the 21st!! Which means we can get right on the sodding right after we get back!! Which means we'll have a walk-on-able backyard by the end of July!! Which means we'll be able to enjoy it for a full month before it starts to get chilly out!! Woot Woot!!! I'm not sure if the deck will be done this summer or not, but I'd sure love for it to be. Any good carpenters out there who want to come and help? I'll even feed you suppers and let you use my bathtub. It'll be like you're staying at a Bed and Breakfast!

Jules :Oj

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

a loved one's memorial day

The things I try my hardest to remember, I often forget.

The things I try my hardest to forget, I am cursed with the memory of.

Today was hard. Tonight was even harder. Tomorrow, I'll try to remember the good stuff and move on as the lump in my throat disappears and the tears cease to flow.

... I miss you.

Love Jules :O*

water me down and call me nancy

I just went to take a big swig of water from this water bottle I have that's got a 2 inch opening at the top (instead of one of those little suck on me nozzles), and wanna know what? Now I look like I'm entering a wet t-shirt contest because apparently I can't even get myself together enough to drink properly. I'm starting to believe in this biorhythms thing.

Jules :Oj

pretty darn accurate today.

I get these things called Bio Rhythms sent to me on Facebook and most of the time I forget to read them, but today I didn't forget.

And holy crap. My biorhythms SUCK ASS for today. Here... have a read:
Physical: Take care. You're in the critical zone for clumsiness (0 % but rising.)
Emotional: Feeling a little bit jaded. (-22 % but rising.)
Intellectual: Tasks requiring brain power aren't going to be easy. (-62 % and falling.)

Yup, pretty much sums it up too. This, though, is the first time I've EVER been in the minuses!! Please, nobody require anything smart to come from my brain today. You'll just be left disappointed!

Jules :Oblech.

Monday, July 09, 2007

you need to do this!

Go on... do it! Arms up high... take a deep breath... hold it... now let it out as you let your arms down and relax your body from the stretch. Make sure to exhale deeply and let out that little *sighing* sound as you deflate. Now fold yourself over your legs while still in the sitting position and do the deep breath again... reach your fingers to your toes (or nearest you can manage) while stretching your legs straight out. Hold that breath for 5 seconds before exhaling deeply again and as you exhale, come back to sitting position. Don't forget the *sighing* sound. That's important. Especially if you have other people sitting close to you right now.

There. Now doesn't that feel better?

Jules :Oq
P.S. I'm done planting my perennial garden bed but I won't bore you with the details.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

wax on, wax off (how original, hey?)

I did it!! I waxed my bikini line myself and I've lived to speak of it!!

I know. You're all sitting there clapping your hands giving me highest of high praise. Thank you, thank you... *bow*

For the record, I tried my armpit too, but wasn't able to pull the skin taught enough so it didnt' work. And I also tried a strip on my leg and successfully managed some longer-term toe hair removal.

Jules ;O)

Saturday, July 07, 2007

that doesn't happen every day

Happy 07/07/07!

If you're superstitious today should be a good day for you!

Jules :Oj

Friday, July 06, 2007

my biggest hobby: yarding

This is what I've been up to. I've included a complete listing of flowers/shrubs/trees because some of you are gardeners and will appreciate the effort! The flowers and some of the surubs are freshly planted, meaning planted yesterday and today, so they are nowhere near mature yet, and therefore don't really stand out in the beds much. But in a month hopefully the beds will be packed with color and beauty!! These 3 beds took alot more time and effort than I thought they would and two of them are larger than I'd originally planned. But I'm happy with the end results!


So in the large round flowerbed alongside the driveway is a Toba Hawthorn tree (blooms pink in the spring), a Dwarf Miss Kim Lilac, Blue Star Juniper, Rose Glow Barberry, a purple speckled iris and an orange cream daylily. Annuals include some: salvia, several varieties of coleus, gazania, butterfly argyranthemum, purple and peach osteospermum, several colors of geranium, nicotiana, several colors of petunia, pansy, marigold, and amaranthus.

The lower bed is to be planted with low mounding colorful perennials such as phlox, snow in summer, dianthus, etc. That will be done over time as I find them. I'm not in a huge hurry. I just finished preparing the dirt in that one an hour ago.

In the upper bed, although it's hard to see them all from this photo, the shrubs are: Siberian Dogwood, Northern Lights Azelea, Black Lace Elderberry, and a Red Prince Weigela. There's some kind of perennial in there too, but I got it from my dad and can't recall the name of it. I'll be adding another daylily, too. I had one for in there but when I went to plant it I found it had rotted. And for annuals, there's basically the same mix of what's in the largest bed but in fewer numbers. Around the side of my house is a Tiger Eyes Sumac in a bed all alone but hopefully the cannis I planted will do well there and soon provide it with some company. You just never know with bulbs.

I also have a tiny little bed with a Dwarf Alberta Spruce in it running alongside my sidewalk and it's surrounded by the perennial Caladium, but it was planted in bulb form too, so it's not come up yet. I saw one sprout yesterday, so hopefully they'll all do well in there and make for a pretty bed.

So! There you have it! I'm almost done the front yard! The sad news is that you probably still won't see alot of me because the bobcats and dumptrucks just finished loading dirt into my backyard!!! After the fence goes in, I'll be laying sod and edging out some beds in the back and starting all over again! If you can hold on a while, I'll be back more often in the fall! ;O) That's not to say that I'm not around visiting right now, but if you've wondered where I've been hiding out, now you know!

Jules :Oweeeeeeeeee!

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

a tidbit

I just felt the need to let you know that I'm the type of person who adopts behaviors and accents from people. Amit experienced this once on the phone already when I found humor in him repetitively using the word literally. It sounded so flowy and cute that I had to quote him and I'm sure my pathetic excuse of a British accent made him gag... but he laughed anyway!

Yeah, I don't know why that happens to me, but I can't resist trying my hand at sounding like others. Whether it's accents or something that defines a type of culture. Sometimes it really really doesn't suit me. Like, I just watched "Stomp The Yard" and it is a movie with all black people (excuse the political incorrectness please, I mean no offense) and then wrote an email and I was all homegirl in it. It doesn't suit me. Yet I just keep on trying. But you know what? I'm definately no Robin Williams. At least I recognize that about myself. Will it stop me from attempting to sound cool? Probly not.

Night everyone!
Jules :Osizzle!

my "pink lady" apple experience

Yes, yes, yes, YESSSSSSSSS! Yesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyes!!!!!

I FINALLY ate an apple straight off the core without using a knife... you know actually biting into it, WITHOUT getting apple peel stuck in my teeth!!!!!

There's a first time for everything, right? What a GREAT way to start my day! Weeeeeeee!

Jules :OP

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

stuff

Some things of little or no interest:

My face is itchy.

When I work out/work in the yard (whatever the case may be) I sweat. To the point I should almost keep a towel around my neck or wear a sweatband.

I think I'm slowly overcoming my fear of arachnids. I seem to be able to be around them now if they aren't moving. Or if they aren't too EVIL looking. But as soon as they start to move, get me the hell outta there or give me a can of Raid. Now.

I sunburned my upper lip at the beach yesterday. It still hurts today.

My questionable "spots" on my arms that I've referred to in the past have been sent away for biopsy and today I got back the results. Seems I'm not cancerous afterall. I can breathe again. They are caused by sun damage, but the results are strictly benign. YAY!

Jules :O)

duh moment... need help.

In old blogger I used to be able to do a search, but for some reason I can't seem to see where the search feature is anymore in new blogger. I can search for words within my own blog, but what I want to do is search for other people with blogs from Red Deer. How come I am so stupid this morning and can't find it? Suggestions anyone?

Jules :Oj

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Top THAT!

I'm really proud of myself for being able to make such a thing of beauty. I should have become an architect.