Sunday, June 22, 2014

Blossoms and bugs on my birthday...

For my birthday this year, I wasn't stopped by flood waters in my attempt to get to BC (like what happened last year)! Woot! Thor and I met and enjoyed a wonderful weekend together (with an extra evening thrown in!). And you know, it was really beautiful everywhere I looked. As we spent our time together, I couldn't help but notice the wonderful things that were around us on a more miniature scale. Here are a few snaps from the macro or supermacro setting. Enjoy! 

Mini Moss Mound, hardly bigger than a golf ball...

An Alberta Rose, alone, sweetly bathing in the morning dew...

A native weed with a flower as small as a pencil eraser decorated the forest floor...

An ant, busy looking for a hidden treasure...

Is this something the plant seeps, or is it the beginning of an insect... bubbles or eggs? 

A fascinating beetle of some kind, bumbling up the side of a garbage can...

Pink daisies... my favorite color and favorite flower combined...

A wonderful birthday weekend, spent with a wonderful man, in a wonderful part of our corner of the globe.

Jules :O38now!

I retain all rights to all of my photographs. Just a reminder! :) 

Sunday, June 15, 2014

You may go now, Julie...

I hold my breath. It's hard to breathe and my heart beats at a thousand miles per hour. She begins with a brief overview and then says, "This number shows if the test was good, and it was an accurate test, and this number is the actual test result. Your results were very favorable, you no longer show markers of having cancer. Let me just double check with Dr. Jha, but I think we're going to discharge you today." She continues to answer a few immediate questions.

The intern leaves the room and I look at Thor and fill to the brim with emotion. I start to cry a little bit, tears of absolute joy. He looks completely thrilled and relieved at the exact same time.

She comes back within 2 or 3 minutes and confirms it. "Yes, we are discharging you and from now on you will just need to have regular bloodwork done with your doctor back home, unless far down the road there is any need to come back to The Cross." A few more questions answered, a prescription written for a full year and we shake hands, say our thank you's and walk out the door.

It's been nearly 2 years since my initial diagnosis. Today, I am cancer free. I no longer have thyroid cancer. And the chances of me ever getting it again are very slim.. only 10% or less after 30 years from now, because I had all 3 possible treatments and continue to take a high enough dose of the synthroid med.

Being told  you have cancer is THE scariest thing in the world (until you've experienced that, I'm not sure you can even imagine how scary it is). Being told you are cured and can be discharged from your cancer treatment center is THE most amazing thing in the world (there are some very amazing things, this one tops them all).

This is my new reality.

Jules :Ooverthemoon!!!

Saturday, June 14, 2014

I'm all messy now...

They say everything happens for a reason, but I just can't seem to put together what the reason was for me falling backwards into a pile of sharply edged, pointy landscaping bricks this afternoon. I really messed up my back, and left arm, and you can't see, but my arm's all swollen and across that top lashing on my back, it's all swollen there too. My lower back is all bent out of shape now too, and I have a whacking good headache. 

What am I supposed to learn from this. Maybe to be more aware of what my surrounding's are when I'm jumping full force onto a shovel to dig up deeply rooted grass/weeds? Or maybe it's that I don't always have to help out friends, sometimes letting them do the work is ok? I just couldn't stand idly by while she couldn't even get the shovel to pierce the ground though... 

Irony: I work all the time for the contractor and never get more than a bruise here or there, but I do this for my friend in her yard, all casual and taking my time and this happens. It only takes a second to have an accident, I guess. And there are no take backs. I think that's the lesson... maybe just in time for me to be 20 feet up building a deck extension on Tuesday.

Ugh. Ow. 

Jules :Opainsucks(

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Miss...

I've been told recently that boredom is the precursor to depression. If you keep active, your body will be healthier, and if you keep mentally engaged in something, your mind will also stay healthy.

So it's best to always keep busy doing something engaging. Best for your body and your mind.

Today is a good illustration. Thor had to leave to go back to the States, but instead of staying home and thinking about him being gone, I went out and painted with the contractor guy I work with. So all day, I had stuff to keep my body and my mind busy (because the contractor guy loves to talk talk talk and I had to focus on the professional paint job I was laying down). The absence of Thor didn't hit me hard until I returned to my house.. where I don't have anything really active going on and I have enough down time to sit and think about him not being here. I didn't get all choked up until now.

Craptastic. I love having him around me sooo much, and it never gets any easier to say goodbye. Guh.

I guess it's good that I'm going back out to paint some more after the kids leave. Keep occupied, stay sane... don't miss him so much.

Well, I'll miss him all the same. I just won't be dwelling on it to the point of crying. That'll be good, I guess.

Jules :O(